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Only Knowing People Intimately Tells You Who They Are: An interview with Amy Bloom By Libby Garland
Amy Bloom is the author of the highly acclaimed new
collection of short stories, A Blind Man Can See How Much I Love You. Her earlier fiction includes the short story collection
Come to Me, which was nominated for the National
Book Award, and the novel Love Invents Us. Her work has appeared in The New Yorker,
Antaeus, Story, Mirabella, Self, and Vogue, among other publications. CLAL
Senior Fellow Libby Garland spoke recently with Bloom about the very human issues that
have most engaged the author and former psychotherapist in her work: the complicated ways
people can be connected to (and disconnected from) each other in their relationships and
communities, and the difficulty and importance of coming to understand other people
intimately. Libby Garland: One thing I like
very much about your fiction is that it is often about unconventional
crossingsunlikely connections between people, whether in a cross-generational
friendship or a taboo love affair, or unexpected transformations people make. Why are those the subjects that compel you? Amy Bloom: Well, I guess because all intimate
relationships are crossings. No matter how conventional the frame, I think to know and
engage with someone intimately is always a crossing of a border, always fraught, even if
youve been married fifty years. LG: At CLAL, one of the
things we question is the Jewish worlds preoccupation with intermarriageits fears of boundary crossing,
and its desire to police its boundaries. AB: I think any small group struggles with that. If youre a small group and youre
attached to your identity, theres no way not to understand that as soon as you leave
the shtetl walls, people will begin
intermarrying. You know, its a big,
seductive world out there, and if you want to be part of it at all, you run the risk that
your children will embrace it. This
doesnt concern me personally, but I understand that people feel anxiety about it. LG: But I always find
those experiences of crossing the richest and most interesting. AB: Sure, crossings always lie somewhere on an
engaging spectrumfrom the unlikely ones to the almost impossible to the
transgressive. And what someone else regards
as transgressive I may regard as simply unlikely. Also,
different things bother different people. Intermarriage doesnt bother me. Encouraging your thirteen-year-old daughter to
get a nose job bothers me. LG: How come? AB: Because the idea that a pretty girl with a
large nose who looks Jewish needs to be surgically altered as soon as possible seems to me
unfortunate. In general, I think that plastic
surgery for adolescentswhether its breast jobs or nose jobsis really not
such a great idea, unless of course a person is in some way disfigured. LG: Talking of plastic surgery reminds me of the title
story in A Blind Man Can See How Much I Love You,
which is about a mother who helps her teenage daughter get the sex-change operation
shes wanted for years. How does that story fit into your ideas about the connections
between surgery and identity, and about how far you should go to change yourself or your
kid? AB: There are different points of view about
somebody being transsexual. But if you believe that some people are actually born in the
wrong package, and that they will always be not just more like the opposite sex, but in
fact the opposite sex inside, I certainly understand wanting to do something about that
because it may never change. And its
not that I think that if you have a big nose you shouldnt fix it under any
circumstancebut I do think that if youre thirteen or fourteen the people who
are driving that train are your parents. LG: And that makes me
think about your novel, Love Invents Us. The mother in the novel has this redecorating fetish
thats very painful for the daughter. AB: Yes, it was painful for the daughter to be
such a project, but also for the mother to feel that the daughter needed so much fixing. LG: I understand the
novel took place close to your home of origin? AB: Yes, parts were set in a real or imagined
Great Neck, where I grew up. LG: So what was Great
Neck like? AB: Not unlike the town in the novel. I wasnt very happy there, but I dont
know that I would have been very happy in any suburban community. I like the city and I
like the country; Im not much for the in-between. LG: Were you part of
Jewish life in Great Neck? AB: Not at allexcept that it was inevitable
that one should be part of Jewish life in Great Neck, given the make-up of the town. No, my parents didnt belong to a synagogue,
and I was very rarely in one except when my grandparents wished to go for the High
Holidays, and then I would be sent as a little gift package to go with them. LG: What was that like? AB: Boring. I stared out the window of the
religious school, surrounded by a bunch of kids Id never seen and wouldnt see
again until the next year. It was largely a
non-event for me. Then my grandparents would
swing by, pick me up, and wed go home. LG: So you didnt
go to the services? AB: I was at the childrens
servicesthey had them so the adults wouldnt be disturbed. My memory of this is
largely one of indifference. I put on a
dress, I brushed my hair, I sat in the back row, nobody talked to me, I didnt talk
to them, and then my grandparents picked me up. LG: Do you think it was
important to your grandparents that you went? AB: Apparently.
I think they would have preferred that my parents go with them, but my
parents had no intention of going to synagogue. LG: So you were
substituting for your parents? AB: Yes, I was like a little Purim basket, sent
along as an offering. I cant have done
it more than three times, though. So I was
never really in a synagogue until I had children. By then, I was living in a very
Christian part of Connecticut and I thought that if my children were not to grow up
celebrating St. Sebastians as a central holiday in their lives, Id better find
a synagogue. LG: You were in
Middletown? AB: I was in Middletown then. Now Im in
Durham, another small town in Connecticut. LG: So how did you go
about figuring out what you wanted to do with your kids? AB: It wasnt that hard; I wanted to find a
synagogue I could tolerate. I found a small
synagogue nearby, with a wonderful young woman rabbi, and we joined and that was it. I was reasonably active, on the board and in the
Hebrew school, and the girls chose to stay on after bat mitzvah as teaching aides and then
teachers in the Hebrew school. And there you have it.
I dont think I really have a great feel for religious life. LG: Meaning the
institutional stuff? AB: Well, I was happy to be involved when it
played a significant role in my kids lives, and I can still imagine being involved,
but in general, given time constraints, I usually have to choose between being involved in
local Democratic politics and being involved in the synagogue. I did the synagogue for
about ten years, and now Im doing local Democratic politics. LG: One of my favorite
stories in the new book is Closing the Gates, about a woman having an affair
with the non-Jewish husband of her synagogue president. It captures the texture of
synagogue communities so wellsometimes with great irony, sometimes poignantly. Do
you think of your writing as reflecting contemporary American Jewish life? AB: Yes, sure, the story is absolutely about
community life, and about the high holidays, and about the possibility of forgiveness and
atonement. The subject of Jewishness emerges sometimes in my work, but I wouldnt say
that it dominates my fiction. If someone reads my stories and connects with them on that
level, thats fine. But I dont
think its on the front burner of most of what I write, and I wouldnt say
its a central issue I grapple with. LG: Closing the Gates is also a wonderful
commentary on the Yom Kippur liturgy. Do you
think the story itself could work as alternative liturgy for the holiday? AB: I dont know. I think that would be for
someone else to decide. My current rabbi said he liked it. LG: What did he like
about it? AB: I think he liked the complications of the
spiritual and moral universe I write about. LG: How did he come to
see the story? AB: Oh, were friendshe reads my work,
we play tennis together. LG: Do you thinkand
Im thinking here about how your kids grew up in a small Christian townthat
growing up in Great Neck made you feel Jewish in a particular way? AB: I was certainly very conscious that I was a
Jew. I mean, I lived in a town in which the public school system closed for the High
Holidays. That gives you a clue: something like 95% of my high school was Jewish. I was certainly aware that the dominant culture
in my little town was Jewish; that undoubtedly accounted for my actively seeking out
non-Jewish friends. You know, Jewishness was
simply there, like in the water or air, in a way it wasnt for my kids. They were
part of a small minority; they had to deal with their share of either friendly or
unfriendly anti-Semitism. Im sure it
built character. LG: Do you have a sense
that Jewish institutions are not very good places for thinking about intimate
relationships with people or the moral complexities of the world? AB: You
know, my best friend is quite a religious and spiritual person, and I think she
experiences the best of the Jewish institutions with which she comes in contact as places
in which there is certainly room for dialogue, and meditation, and growth. And I think she makes a point of findingand
shapinginstitutions like that. I have a
lot of admiration for that, but I dont have that much contact with these
institutions. I dont think Jewish
institutions are worse than other institutions. Perhaps
theyre a little noisierbut I think thats a good thing, not a bad thing. Certainly I have had great moments in my life
sitting in a pew in the middle of Kol Nidrei,
but I dont go to institutions for dialogue and growth and meditation. I sit in my backyard for that. Im sure that
if one were so inclined, it would be a lifelong struggle to get institutions to be
responsive because the nature of institutions is inertia.
It takes a lot of work to change that river. I suppose that if I were a
spiritual person, I would always need to find a way to be connected to that part of my
life, whether it was through an institution or not. Since
Im not, that issue doesnt really arise. LG: Youre not? AB: I wouldnt say so. Its not part of my makeup. Its just
not part of who I am. LG: I always feel
bewildered when that question comes up. Im never sure what people mean by
spiritual. AB: Well, I dont have even the remotest
interest in theology, or discussions about or ideas about Gods role in the universe,
our relationship with God, Gods relationship with us, or heaven, or hell, or angels,
or Gods grace. All very interesting
subjects, but they dont speak to me. LG: But your stories all
work with the things I think religion, at its best, struggles with, tooreal human
relationships, the complicated moral universe. What
is it that makes writing the place where you contemplate those sorts of things? AB: Im a writer, so writing is that place. If youre a painter, painting is that place.
Im sure other people work those things out through their sculptures, or through
their gardening. LG: And yet, writing is
something you came to later on, after being a psychotherapist. Are the things you care about in your stories also
things you cared about, or came to see, as a therapist? AB: I would actually say that the things I cared
about led me to being a therapist and also emerge in my writing. I think that, to some extent, good therapists are
born, not madeborn deeply curious about other people, with a capacity to listen, a
sense of humor, an emotional resiliency and a kind of effortless compassion. LG: Do you miss being a
therapist? AB: Sure. I was good at it. I knew what I was
doing. In therapy, you get a partner to work
with, unlike in writing, where you dont get a partner. LG: Yet, like therapy,
your fiction is so much about human relationships, even if writing itself is a solitary
activity. But do you think that your fiction is, like therapy, also about individual
selves, or about identities? In the academic
circles I move in, people sometimes talk about identities in isolation, as if we could
imagine something about peoples selves extracted from their relationships. AB: I think identity is an interesting and
fruitful area for academics, but not something I find myself thinking about much. I mean, I think peoples identities in the
world are interesting and complicated and multilayered, and I think most of the efforts to
simplify them are mistaken. But it is probably true that when you ask people how they
think of themselves, most of the time they will either say, Well, Im a Jew, a
woman, and a da-da-da, or theyll say, Im a woman, a Jew, and a
da-da-da. That probably gives you some clue to how they order their identities, but
I dont know that it tells you who they are. LG: So what tells you who
they are? AB: Paying attention and knowing people intimately
tells you who they are. Everything else, I
suspect, is a gross generalization. LG: If you have a
limited amount of time with someone, how do you figure out who they are? AB: The truth is, casual relationships are not of
much interest to me. Categorizing people is not of much interest to me, although Im
always interested in how people present to the world and to me. LG: Does that mean that
interviews seem particularly shallow to you? AB: Nobody holds a gun to my head. If its
useful for the interviewer, then Im glad. I
dont feel Im being forced to stand on a stage and strip away my outer selves
to reveal my true being. Seems an unlikely
outcome for forty-five minutes. I try to be
helpful, because Ive said yesbut I always feel sorry, of course, for the
interviewer. LG: And yet, it seems
that in your stories theres often an important play between the complicated reality
of who characters are, on the one hand, and the assumptions other characters make about
who they are, on the other. Isnt that
tension, in some ways, the core of the first story in A Blind Man Can See
How Much I Love You, the story about transsexuality? AB: Sureits about the complexity of
who someone is, and what someone really wants. And
its about other stuff thats connected to that: the wish to be seen, the wish
to be known and loved. LG: So, do you dislike
questions like, Would you describe yourself as a Jew? AB: I am Jewish. Id say that in the same way
that Id shrug and say, I am a woman. Those are just parts of who I am. I realize one might distinguish between I am
a Jew and when the Nazis come Im in big trouble, and I am an observant
Jew, but still, being a Jew is absolutely part of my life and I feel lucky. Its an interesting additional piece of
texture. I guess I could have been born not Jewish, and then being Lutheran could have
been additional, and interesting. I find it
interesting to be part of a tiny group of people, to have those cultural associations. I like that right around Christmas, when my
children will be home, theyll say Oh, wont you please make latkes? Its a nice thing to do; two of my great
dishes are matzo ball soup and latkes, thats just how it is. I dont know. No doubt if I werent Jewish Id be
someone else, and priding myself on my marshmallow Jell-O mold, who knows? LG: So you never just
wanted to blend into your surroundings in Christian Middletown? AB: Im not so much of a blending-in kind of
person. I live in a tiny, almost entirely white farm town, which is largely Republican and
largely Christian, and Im a dark-haired woman of Eastern European descent, which
already makes me look different from everybody else. I wear black, Im a Jew,
Im a writer, and Im queer. So I
figure between one thing and another, Ive got plenty of identity to go around. LG: And yet, if you
lived on the Upper West Side, that would all play differently. AB: Living on the Upper West Side would probably
bore me to tears, actually. LG: Because you would
blend in? AB: Its not like I never, ever blend
inI was a member of the PTA. But you know, its a big interesting world, and I
like being in contact with lots of different parts of it. LG: And it sounds like
all those things to which you might answer, I am x I am a
woman, I am queer, I am Jewish, I am of Eastern
European descentin some ways emerge in relationship with this community you
live in thats really different from you. AB: Sure. Though,
on the other hand, the way most people in the town think of me is as my kids mother,
and as somebody whos been very reliable for bake sales, helpful to the library, and
active in local politics. Im sure the
other things are part of their consciousness, but its just part of the
packagewhich is actually how I feel about it, too.
LG: It seems like interviewers are coming at you from
whatever it is that they want to know about. . . . AB: Sure, the woman writer, the Jewish writer. What do I care? Whats it to me? It
doesnt have much to do with who I am. Interviews
are hard to do; weaving a narrative around this short little piece of question and answer
is a tough job. Of course, people have to have an angle from which to approach it, a
little step to stand on so they can dive in. I dont take it personally. LG: If you were interviewing you, how would you get around
that? AB: That would be difficult, I think. Its
always better to interview people who have a strong wish to tell you about themselves, and
who have a desire to be seen in the world. Those
make for easier interviews. I dont
know. . .Im probably more forthcoming on some subjects than on others. But its
always a challenge to figure out how to enter into a relationship with someone you
dont know. LG: That seems so
precisely the task of therapists these days, especially with HMOs. It makes me think of a
great piece you did in The New York Times Magazine about how the system makes it so much easier for
therapists to medicate kids rather than to do family therapy. It was poignant because it was so much about the
refusal to have family relationships be at the center of therapy, and the tendency to
focus instead on the kids pathology. AB: Yesthats why I never dealt with
HMOs. Therapy that takes relationships seriously is often the most effective, but it sure
isnt efficient. And it makes people
uncomfortable. LG: Wellif
theres one thing your stories do really elegantly, its taking relationships
seriously. Thank you for them, and also for the chance to talk. AB: Youre very
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